Just so many of them.
in the past few months between my dentist and my doctor, they both have told me I have ZERO fucken chill.
The dentist recommends I try meditation and “other” pre bed techniques… I doubt I need to elaborate on what he meant there 😉 .
And my doctor gave me drugs to calm the fuck down. so many drugs.
Stress is a real thing for me right now. And mean people feel just meaner and in general I am battling to deal. with. any. thing.
If I pick up a carrot and it is the wrong size.. I want to cry and go to bed.
When the kids are assholes (all the damn time) … I want to cut the power to their rooms and change the wifi password.
Work is overwhelming me, the usual ebb and flow is scary and when the phone rings – I run out the door and refuse to answer.
WHAT THE FUCK!
—– The drugs help, but they also make me slow and weird.
Professional help is not an option. because I have trust issues and they just want to write a book.
This too shall pass… lets just hope I get through this without breaking all my teeth or completely cracking at the wrong time.