The Words…

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I Laugh, I Smile

I Joke, there is Play

But beneath it all..

.. is sadness.

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Daring not to show itself,

for fear of sympathy

or the release of madness.

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Often wishes for death will come,

Days of anger, moments of tears,

Never once able to voice

any or even some of my fears.

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Why do I feel this way?

How can I smile to the world

And yet not be brave enough..

..to stay?

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The nights are endlessly sleepless,

Days are painfully long…

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The sadness sits with me.

Like an old uncomfortable friend,

awkward conversation,

the direction of which is difficult to bend.

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So I laugh,I smile, I joke and play.

I keep it to myself, what is there really to say?

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