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These numbers mean nothing to most people but to me..but  they denote the moment in my life when everything changed.. 16 Years ago I went from being a 19 year old  carefree, irresponsible, wild child to a 19 year old scared, overwhelmed and nervous new mom. I loved J the first moment I saw his squished up face when the nurse brought him to me..I cant explain why I loved him..it seems irrational to feel such overwhelming love for this little life that I have only just met, I just know I did. Was I scared?!?!? You bet your sweet ass I was! What if I get things wrong? What if I don’t wake up when he cries? What if I put his nappy on wrong? What if I don’t feed him enough? What if I feed him too much? What if I drop him? What if I lose him? What If I...