Been there, got the T-shirt..

Sometimes our inability to foresee change in others and situations can result in the stupidity of us all.

I am just as guilty as you.. I don’t expect people or situations to change and if a situation looks familiar I have already concluded the ending.

I hardly ever get my hopes up and am always surprised by the generosity of others. In my experience the only person I have ever been able to rely on when it really counts is me. But that assumption and expectation is not really true now is it? I HAVE been able to rely on others before but I chose not to just in case they let me down… <–stupid, hey!?

I am often referred to as skeptical and pessimistic but prefer to think of myself as a realist and a cautious person..  My past is checkered with disappointment and letdowns by others, particularly those whom I loved and never thought would let me down.

And here I am, a grown-assed woman with the inability to allow life to run its course, instead predetermining the end with doom and gloom and dying heroines surrounded by dead puppies (it is just that grim in my mind).

Perhaps it is time we burn that T-Shirt? So what if we have been there? So what if we were strip searched and handed new apparel to wear? Does that mean we should get off the ride altogether? Does every road really end at the same destination or is it possible that each journey is unique?

*sigh*

But what if my worst fears become a reality?! How do I protect myself from future hurt and disappointment if I don’t allow for it in the first place?

I want to believe that things are different, I want to throw caution to the wind and I want to dream and hope just like everyone else..