2 years later..

Today I woke up a little bit slower,

a little bit sadder, and with a little less purpose..

But I did get up and start my day, I did not cower.

Its been 2 years since we last spoke,

2 years since my heart broke..

The pain, the anguish I felt at your passing,

The hurt, the loss, the tears… seemingly everlasting,

are there still, ever present today as I remember,

that two years ago you left me..broken.. with your departure..

Without your warmth, your love, and your voice,

I feel lost and angry and want to scream at the world..

“This was not my wish, this was never my choice!”

yet I am forced to get up each and very morning,

Put a smile on my face and pretend that everything is alright..

So today, like yesterday and the day before,

I get by..I get going.. I get through it.. but not without a fight.

Maybe some day it will get easier.. maybe some day I will learn to accept..

Today is not that day..Today I woke up crying..Today I am still feeling quietly bereft.

briget 2 years later..

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Posted by Briget on Nov 20, 2009 in My Armpits, Random scribbles | 6 comments

Davy
Nov 20, 2009

I miss my mummy.
Tara
Nov 20, 2009

HUGE hugs babe.
Gilz
Nov 20, 2009

*hugglez*
.-= Gilz´s last blog ..Christmas Cringe =-.
Barb
Nov 23, 2009

=( hugs. Pain never really goes away hey, it might get less or simply be pushed to the back where you don’t need to look at it all the time but it is always there felt deep inside.
Angel
Nov 26, 2009

Squishes my friend. Late as they may be.
.-= Angel´s last blog ..I WANT! I WANT! I WANT! =-.
Angelb7
Jul 10, 2010

Hey Bridget-I just want to say how much your poems have touched me. I lost my mother 2 years ago April 20, 2008. I can’t tell you how much your words have meant to me,really. Thank you so much!