Weight for me…
I was a very very cute little girl growing up.. I am not bullshitting you about this! I was constantly being pinched on the cheeks and gripped and groped by complete strangers saying just how cute I was.
If I am critical though I think I looked a little bit awkward with my thin lanky body, big head & big eyes (think lollipop). I was like this forever..weight was never an issue, in fact I had no idea what eating correctly was supposed to mean.
I ate when I was hungry, which was ALWAYS, and ate whatever I wanted, which was normally anything QUICK and EASY(junk food was a food group, dontcha know).
Go ahead.. Hate the younger me.. I do. I would love to kick my younger self for being so damn skinny while eating like a horse! …needless to say this fantastic ability eventually died a gruesome and shocking death.
What happened is a combination of things that will leave me struggling for the rest of my life with the battle of the bulge.
I wont bore you with all the gory details but the sum of it is that I was never built for kids (who is I suppose). I have two lovely boys but am left minus my GallBladder and a dodgy Thyroid that was almost surgically removed due to bad behaviour.
Subsequently, I have spent the last 15 years fighting off the mass that keeps attacking my ass if I just look at a BarOne or a bag of NikNaks. But fight it I must. Arsefuk was particularly cruel to me back then about my weight. He knew how self conscious I was about my weight and how much I struggled to fire up the ol’ metabolism and the effect it all has on me. If I was eating anything of interest that he wanted he would just walk up to me and say things like ‘gobble-gobble’ and I would promptly hand it over to him. I am thankfully out of that disastrous relationshit. But I feel that I am probably more sensitive about my self image because of the way he was to me.
My wardrobe has a large range of clothing in various sizes and I have Fat Jeans, NotsoFat Jeans, Hardware Jeans and YeahBaby Jeans. I am currently on the NotSoFat Jeans range of clothing and trying to claw my way back to YeahBaby Jeans..
It is a hard and lonely road of Veggies, Fruit, Water and lean Protein. I have the recipe for success. I do. But I am mixing by hand and its hard getting all the lumps out…
I have one complete month on the Nazi Regime behind me already and am still on the wagon, rickety wheels and all.. one more month to go and I should be semi porno hot and ready to tighten the rest up at the gym.
So watch this space… Great things are happening!!
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Already on it one month? Jesus. Well done sweetie pie!
That’s a month longer than I’ve managed so far
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Hahahahaha!
I wish I could fall asleep and wake up when its over though.. I almost attacked a random stranger yesterday for his nando’s burger.. was a close one!
LOL.. Been on that diet worked wonders for me.. Dont feel too bad i went from yea baby jeans to elastic waists for better fit and comfort.. That is very very sad. No im still not motivated to go back on the diet.
I hear you.. THe Nazi Regime is NOT repeated easily.. Has fabulous results.. But not easy!
When you ready. I will be there for you.. hiding the nando’s and protecting the innocent..
.-= Gilz´s last blog ..Breakfast at Wimpy =-.
geeez I feel like a stalker here but anyways, saw you again in your car last week Thursday, and you dont look overweight from what I saw, lol obviously it was a quick glimpse but you looked normal
that’s 3 times now, so weird to read someones blog and see them driving.
I LOVE YOU FOR YOUR MIND!!!
(now show me your tits)
Gilz – Thank you! YeahBaby Jeans FTW!
C – Stalking is the new Black..dontcha know?!
Davy – Norty Boy! Now go to the corner and think about what you have done.. I will be there very soon to sort you out, k? teehee
WOOT well done for making one month
THat is awesome!
.-= Laura´s last blog ..Being De-friended =-.
I am so impressed!
I have about a year to get into some kind of decent shape for my wedding day…
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