I wish it wasn’t true..
Once upon a time..
…there was this dude who was all nice and friendly and came across as being a real cool guy..
And we had some fun together and I shared my toys with him and he let me throw things at him and pull his hair.
But there was always something about him I could not quite put my finger on.. I had a feeling that he had some deep darkness lurking just beneath the surface. But how can this be? He is supposed to be such a good boy! Goes to church all the time..Is a Youth leader.. Says all the right things.. Makes all the right noises..
BUT… I couldn’t help but feel that his smile was only skin deep..
And then he starts to change.. Feels less inclined to put on the smile when he is alone and thinks no-one is looking..
…the cracks were beginning to show… “
I unconsciously withdraw some of my toys and put a barrier up.. I feel more and more uneasy and when he speaks I see more of the darkness that he has kept hidden from others. I see the demon beneath and he knows I can see it. And the thing about seeing demons is that once you have seen them.. you can’t unsee them.
And with this awareness he no longer feels the need to be nice when its only him and I in a room.. He snaps and snarls and makes incoherent grumbles under his breathe… I am nervous and distance myself even further..
This continues over a period of months and I don’t know what to about it and keep telling myself that it’s probably my imagination!
And then.. the moment finally arrives when he outwardly exclaims his true self to someone other than me.. He reveals to us in the office that he holds all women in contempt.. He feels that women are beneath him.. He blames his Stepmom for this (always has to be a stepmom in these stories)..
And that is the truth of who he is..He does not feel the need to apologize for his behavior.. In fact he would rather I not speak at all because it just angers him… He is not at all interested at the fact that I am not only a work colleague but the person that puts money into his bank account each month..
How do I deal with someone who judges me for having a guava? Someone who has no respect for women in the workplace?
I must tell you that his behaviour is one of betrayal.. It will also not be tolerated at any other place of work.. so why do I need to make concessions?
He has made his choice.. And this is something he will need to live with.. I cant help but feel pity for him more than anything and I hope that at some point he will learn to overcome the demon that lurks beneath..because if he doesn’t he will not get very far.
But for now as much as it pains me.. I will have to say goodbye.. and wish him well on this destructive path he has chosen.
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Shame hunny, good luck with that horridness.
Goblin’s last blog post..Venus, Jupiter and the Moon
Yes. Get rid of him. Idiot.
He’s the idiot, not you. In case you were wondering….
who are you talking about, though?
Goblin – thanks.. I could do with some..
Glugster – I got it.. and I agree..
Exmi – dude I used to work with.. note the “used to” reference..
I am glad he is a “used to”
Scares me sometimes how our role as mothers (and step mothers) is so important. We arelly cant mess it up!
Laura’s last blog post..My Son
not only would i move on, i would make it personal and lodge grievances against him too.
strongs girl…
angel’s last blog post..A Week Of Fluff
Did not read all of it but got the gist.
Make him bend down and then kick him in the nuts!!!
Everybody has things in their past which have messed them up, its the people themselves who make the choice to let it continue messing them up after the event.
FUCK THAT SHIT. kick him in his nads with a lawyer. mwah
Cath Jenkin’s last blog post..I’m glad you threw the chair
Seriously the dude was not well to say the least. I say good ridence to bad rubbish..
good luck to him
I miss your funneh
Goblin’s last blog post..Addicted – Shamefully
Laura – I never realised what an effect a stepmother might wield.. I am very AWARE now.. and will endeavor to never be that way (if I became a stepmom that is ;-P )
Angel – I don’t need to.. He is not my problem anymore!
Rexmanthe – I don’t think he has any..
Cath Jenkin – see above.. I am of the opinion he has no Nads/balls/testicles/wazoo/penis/nuts/danglybits to speak of..
QueenG – Ja,, you were right.. wish I had taken your warnings more seriously before..
Wenchy – yes..
Goblin – I miss my funneh too..